Lin Ziran ignored the distraught Ning Bai and drove away directly.

Ning Bai watched the green sports car roar away, and after a long time, he smiled bitterly at himself.

Yes, it’s over between them.

It just wasn’t what he expected.

The one who proposed the end.

Not him, either.

………………

Lin Ziran thought to himself, if he has money, why worry about having nowhere to go? Thanks to Lu Maofeng’s 100,000 yuan pocket money, he went directly to a five-star hotel and stayed there happily.

How can he let himself suffer when playing games? Of course, he has to enjoy life!

He goes out to eat and drink during the day and comes back to sleep and play games at night. He was quite happy and carefree.

It’s just that Lin Ziran occasionally looked at his phone and sighed.

【Lin Ziran: Father Lu and Mother Lu actually didn’t call me! 】

【System: Do you want them to call you? Don’t you dislike them?】

【Lin Ziran: I don’t like them, but Lu Xiaodong cares about them. Why do you think a child runs away from home? Do you think he really doesn’t want that home anymore? In the end, he just wants someone to coax him…】

Lu Xiaodong was just a child. Whether he was trying to curry favor with Jiang Xuan or pretending to be rebellious, he just wants to get his parents’ attention. He still cares about his family. Lin Ziran ran away from home now. One of the reasons is that he can’t stay there. He probably also had a little trial in mind, wanting to see if Lu Maofeng and Feng Wan care about this child at all, but the result is so disappointing…

He had already thought about how he would respond if they came to ask him to stay, but the two of them just ignored him!

Even he, a bystander, was so upset, so he can imagine how sad Lu Xiaodong would be.

Even if he left or died, no one would care.

The phone rang.

Lin Ziran quickly looked down and sighed again.

It’s not like no one cares. At least Ning Bai and Jiang Xuan do care, but he doesn’t want to pay attention to these two people.

Because he doesn’t care.

It’s not what Lu Xiaodong wants.

………………

Xue Ze paced back and forth in front of Ning Bai’s office, not daring to go in.

The day before yesterday, Ning Bai was very strange after returning and asked to check the surveillance video. It was only then that he discovered that when he was talking to Ning Bai that day, Lu Xiaodong had actually come over and brought coffee for Ning Bai. However, he happened to hear Ning Bai say that he didn’t love him, so the kid threw away the coffee and left.

Xue Ze thought it was no big deal since they were going to end it anyway, right?

It was for listening anyway.

Who knew Ning Bai seemed very sad after seeing it, which was completely beyond Xue Ze’s expectation, because Ning Bai has always been introverted and rarely showed his emotions like this. Moreover, he had clearly said that he didn’t like him before, so why did his attitude suddenly change?

Although Ning Bai quickly regained his composure, Xue Ze could sense that he was in a very bad mood.

Xue Ze sighed deeply.

Could it be that Ning Bai regretted it again?

He told him to stop being stubborn a long time ago, but this time, he shot himself in the foot, isn’t he?

If Lu Xiaodong hadn’t heard those words, even he would have regretted it now, just go and chase him back, but now it’s difficult! Now Ning Bai is fighting with Jiang Xuan for Lu Xiaodong, and the person he likes misunderstands him and runs away. Why bother? He is really asking for trouble…

What the hell is this?

Xue Ze just wanted to roar to the sky!

He shook his head and prepared to leave when he suddenly saw a middle-aged woman approaching. The woman looked rich and noble in her attire, but her eyes were bloodshot, and her face was haggard. The deep wrinkles on her face made her look a little mean and old.

Xue Ze has seen many women like this. A middle-aged lady whose husband cheated on her. Could it be that she is here to file for divorce again?

Business is coming!

Xue Ze immediately walked over and said politely with a smile: “Hello, what can I do for you?”

Feng Wan looked at him hesitantly and said: “I’m looking for Ning Bai. I want to know which office he is in.”

Xue Ze said enthusiastically: “Just tell me if you have anything to say. I am much more professional than Ning Bai in this area…”

Feng Wan said: “I am his mother.”

Xue Ze: “…”

Xue Ze led Feng Wan to Ning Bai’s office in a daze, with a strange look in his eyes. He coughed and said: “Well, there is a lady here who claims to be your mother…”

Ning Bai raised his eyes and looked at Feng Wan. After a moment, he said calmly: “I understand. You can go out first.”

Xue Ze was shocked when he saw her. Oh my god, this is really Ning Bai’s mother! Could this be Ning Bai’s biological mother? But Ning Bai didn’t look very surprised…

Xue Ze was filled with curiosity.

But he met Ning Bai’s cold and sharp gaze, and he didn’t dare to stay for long, so he quickly closed the door and left.

Ning Bai looked at Feng Wan and said coldly: “Please sit down.”

Feng Wan stared at Ning Bai, tears in her eyes, and hesitated to go over. She said carefully: “I, I want to come to your workplace to see you and get to know you better. I haven’t seen you for so many years, and I really miss you…”

Ning Bai remained silent.

Feng Wan asked again tentatively: “Do you want to go home and live with Mom? I have prepared a room for you…”

Ning Bai looked at the woman in front of him. Twenty years had passed, and she seemed to care about him as much as ever. She was begging him to go back so carefully, but Ning Bai only felt that it was ironic and ridiculous.

She loves him.

There is no doubt about this.

Unfortunately, this love is no longer what he needs.

Ning Bai suddenly asked in a cold voice: “Where is Lu Xiaodong? Do you know?”

Feng Wan was startled, as if she had not expected Ning Bai to ask about Lu Xiaodong, and was a little unprepared: “He, he is not at home these days…”

Ning Bai’s eyes were covered with a layer of coldness, and he said word by word: “Have you looked for him?”

Feng Wan couldn’t speak.

Every day, she was thinking about how to meet Ning Bai and how to persuade Ning Bai to go home. How could she have the time to care about where Lu Xiaodong went?

Ning Bai could guess everything just by looking at her.

The cold current carried the anger in his chest, making it almost impossible for him to control himself and keep his expression calm.

When an accident like that happened, didn’t you ever think about the other person who really needed you at that moment?

Just because the child doesn’t seem to mind, do you think he doesn’t need care?

Some people may just be using that appearance to disguise their inner fragility.

He has run away from home, but you are still indifferent.

Ning Bai spoke slowly, his voice filled with suppressed anger: “I think you should understand one thing. Relationships are not only maintained by blood, but more by long-term companionship… I am no longer your son, but he has been with you for twenty years. You should know what is more important.”

Feng Wan saw that Ning Bai was unhappy and was afraid that he would think she was cold-blooded, so she quickly explained: “I care about him, but he has always been like this. Nothing will happen. He will come back when he runs out of money in a few days. Don’t worry…”

Came back after running out of money?

Is this what he is like in your eyes?

Even if it is a dog, after raising it for twenty years, you should know that it is not enough to just give it some food, but in your eyes, does Lu Xiaodong only want money? Why have you never thought that he wants your love?

You never know how to love someone.

Ning Bai seemed to suddenly understand why the boy became like this.

He just needs to feel presence.

So he acts exaggerated, rogue, and rebellious, dresses himself up like that, and pursues him at all costs. Even if he is not good at it, he still pretends to be a bad boy. In fact, he just wants to receive concern, wants to attract attention, and wants someone to love him because these are things he will never get at home…

Unfortunately, he himself didn’t know this at that time.

Ning Bai closed his eyes and said in a cold voice: “Go away and don’t come here again.”

Feng Wan looked at his cold expression and finally panicked. She pleaded nervously: “Xiao Bai, Mom really misses you. Can you please forgive Mom…”

Ning Bai’s eyes were calm. He suddenly curled his lips and smiled, staring into the other person’s eyes: “You should say this to someone else.”

Another person who really cares about you.

Not me.

Ning Bai turned around and opened the door. As expected, he saw Xue Ze standing at the door and eavesdropping. He said coldly: “Help me see the guests off.”

Xue Ze smiled awkwardly, but he immediately put his expression back on track and turned to Feng Wan and said sternly: “We still have work to do. If you don’t have anything else to do, please leave.”

He already knew Ning Bai’s attitude, so he naturally wouldn’t show much respect to Feng Wan, and at most, he would just maintain superficial courtesy.

Feng Wan didn’t want to leave, but Xue Ze looked at her politely with a smile, but his eyes were very determined, so she could only leave, looking back every few steps.

Xue Ze personally sent Feng Wan to the elevator, watched her go downstairs, and then ran back to Ning Bai’s office, with curiosity written all over his face: “Is she really your biological mother?”

Xue Ze has known Ning Bai for a long time.

Ning Bai’s current parents are foster parents. This is no secret. Everyone knows it, and Ning Bai has never concealed it. Although Ning Bai is not the Ning family’s biological child, the Ning couple is tolerant and gentle, with noble character. Ning Bai himself is very smart and hardworking, so he has been smooth sailing for so many years, and no one has asked him about his biological parents.

Ning Bai himself never mentioned it, never looked for it… Everyone thought that Ning Bai’s biological parents had died a long time ago.

So when Feng Wan appeared, Xue Ze was really surprised.

Seeing Ning Bai’s attitude towards Feng Wan today, Xue Ze felt that Ning Bai’s childhood memories might not be very good. Otherwise, he wouldn’t be so indifferent, right?

After all, they are related by blood.

Xue Ze had all kinds of guesses in his mind, but he didn’t dare to ask, so he just stared at Ning Bai again and again.

“By the way, if she is really your biological mother, you have been separated for twenty years, right?! How did she suddenly find you after so many years of no news? It’s so miraculous!” Xue Ze exclaimed.

Ning Bai finally spoke, saying calmly: “Not miraculous.”

Xue Ze: “?”

Ning Bai slowly spoke: “It seems that Jiang Xuan has not been idle during this period of time.”

Xue Ze’s expression finally became serious: “You suspect that Jiang Xuan investigated you and exposed this matter.”

Ning Bai lowered his eyes and said nothing.

The last time Jiang Xuan warned him, he was still careless. He didn’t expect that Jiang Xuan had already made a plan at that time. In order to get Lu Xiaodong, he did not hesitate to expose such facts, which not only hit him but also gave himself the opportunity to get close to Lu Xiaodong.

At this time, that child must really need comfort and companionship…

Ning Bai closed his eyes and opened them again, suddenly letting out a low self-deprecating laugh, and said to Xue Ze: “Do you know whose mother that woman was just now?”

Xue Ze was confused, isn’t it yours?

Ning Bai said word by word: “She is Lu Xiaodong’s mother.”

Xue Ze was really shocked this time. He almost fell off the chair, his face turned pale, and he trembled and said: “You, you, you slept with your own Didi…”

Ning Bai solemnly corrected: “Lu Xiaodong was adopted.”

Xue Ze let out a long sigh and wiped the cold sweat from his forehead: “Fortunately, fortunately, fortunately, it was not a big mistake…”

Ning Bai’s smile was bitter.

Really?

Is this even something to be thankful for now?

But you are wrong, in fact, my mistake has already been made.

From the day we met, perhaps the outcome of today was destined.

Ning Bai said: “Go out, I want to be alone for a while.”

Xue Ze nodded, and then said worriedly: “Tell me if there is anything, I will help you find a solution, don’t keep it to yourself, okay?”

Ning Bai did not answer.

He sat in the chair for a long time, his eyes fixed on the phone.

These days, he sent many messages to Lu Xiaodong, but Lu Xiaodong never responded once.

This was not unexpected of him.

But he couldn’t control himself and always wanted to look at, what if the other party replied?

When did he start to be so nervous, expectant and fearful, and tread on thin ice because of a person’s words?

Ning Bai raised his hands to cover his eyes and pulled the corners of his mouth in self-mockery.

He couldn’t fall asleep. He had been working for three consecutive days. He was obviously very tired, but he couldn’t close his eyes.

Because as soon as he closed his eyes.

Then he would return to that nightmare again.

………………

The woman insulted the man while fighting: “You just like vixens like that, right? I saw it a long time ago. She’s just a secretary, but she dresses up all day long, with her breasts and legs exposed. It’s obvious that she’s not a decent person!”

The man dodged and said in a guilty and flattering manner: “I was just distracted for a moment. I’m sorry. I promise there won’t be a next time. I will fire her now!”

The woman was even more angry: “You said the same thing last time! But you ended up hooking up with another woman in the blink of an eye!”

The man laughed dryly: “That…”

The woman cried hysterically: “How could you do this? Are you worthy of us, mother and son? I worked hard to earn money for your business, I gave birth to your child, and took care of the housework for you. Is this how you repay me? Lu Maofeng, don’t forget that I also have shares in the company!”

The man showed a hint of displeasure when he heard this, but he still patiently coaxed her: “I understand, I understand everything, I’m sorry, I will make it up to you in the future. Okay?”

The woman still cried: “I love you so much, I love you so much, how could you betray me?”

Ning Bai just stood aside and watched quietly, like a bystander.

Watching this scene again and again.

Watching the man cheating, being discovered, the woman insulting him, and the two of them getting entangled.

Watching ridiculous farces again and again.

The cycle goes on and on, with no end.

Betrayal, quarrels, suspicion.

It became the deepest mark in his childhood heart.

Has this man ever loved this woman?

Maybe he loved her.

But his love could not stand the test of time or the temptation from the outside world.

The once loving couple, after repeated betrayals and deceptions, eventually became resentful lovers who hurt each other.

They hated each other so deeply.

But they refused to separate.

After every quarrel, the woman would burst into tears. Maybe she knew in her heart that the man no longer loved her, but she couldn’t leave him, she couldn’t leave this family, she had given too much and couldn’t get out of it…

She gave all her love to the man, so she couldn’t accept his betrayal and leaving.

She always hugged him in the dead of night, murmuring one sentence after another: “Xiao Bai, you are the only one I have. I love you. You will always stay with me, right?”

He let the woman hold him.

Listening to her neurotic nagging voice, watching her cry again and again, getting hurt by the man again and again, and finally hugging him in despair and sadness, saying, Mom only has you…

He thought he was really important.

Until the man cheated again.

Ning Bai couldn’t remember how many times this had happened.

The farce escalates again and again.

Every time the woman becomes more hysterical and crazy than the last time. She cannot get over the pain of being betrayed. She doesn’t know that some people’s nature is hard to change. She doesn’t know that this will only make her suffer more.

She doesn’t know how to let go.

This time she was even more noisy and scratched the man’s face. The man finally lost his patience and pushed the woman to the ground: “Are you done yet? I’ve already said we’re breaking up.”

The woman went crazy. She suddenly saw Ning Bai standing nearby, rushed over, grabbed the child, pointed the scissors at him, and shouted frantically: “I will kill him, and then die with him!”

The man finally got anxious and immediately humbled himself: “Calm down, the child is innocent.”

The woman laughed: “When you cheated on your wife, why didn’t you think about the child’s innocence?”

The man said quickly: “I did something wrong, but those things have nothing to do with him! Why do you involve children in adult matters! I promise, I will never do it again next time. This time I swear to you! It was those women who seduced me. In fact, I only have you in my heart. I love you.”

The woman didn’t believe it at all. She exerted force with her hands, and the sharp scissors cut Ning Bai’s face. Blood immediately flowed down. She yelled at the man: “Don’t come over here, or I’ll kill him!”

The man didn’t dare to get close, so he stepped back and said anxiously: “Let him go first, we can talk it out!”

Ning Bai was held by the woman, letting the scissors cut across his face without struggling. On the contrary, he was very calm. Although he was a little surprised and a little sad, that was all.

The man’s repeated promises, betrayals, and deceptions finally made the woman completely collapse. But since she hated the man so much, why didn’t she drag the man to hell with her, but drag him down with her? It was because he was born by her, and her blood flowed in his body…

So his life should also be hers.

Is that right?

He was a tool she used to threaten the man, a bargaining chip she used to blackmail the man…

Do you really love me so much?

Or do you love me this much that you want to die with me?

Is this love?

This farce once again ended in vain.

The man promised again and again that he would not do that.

But Ning Bai knew this wouldn’t be the last time.

This time the man was well behaved for a long time. After nearly a year, he went home on time every day and never went out to fool around again. The woman also seemed to be much better. She still chose to forgive him. She was willing to do anything just to get a man who didn’t love her to go home.

But some things are bound to happen sooner or later.

The man was caught secretly having sex with his female subordinate in the company’s office.

That day, the woman took him to the company to look for the man, and they bumped into this situation by chance.

But Ning Bai felt that this was not a coincidence. If something looked like a coincidence, it only meant that this thing had happened many times, and it just happened to happen one of those times by chance.

The woman quarreled with the man again.

She was very disappointed and distressed.

She left home with Ning Bai that day.

They went to another city, and the woman rented a small room and lived with him. She hugged him and cried every day, sometimes crying and sometimes laughing.

She said, I love him so much, I have given so much for him, why does he treat me like this…

She said, your father will definitely come to see us, he will definitely come…

She said, Xiao Bai, you will always be with mom, right? You are mom’s only one, you are mom’s most beloved person, mom only has you…

The woman doesn’t actually have much money.

The man didn’t come to find them, so she had to go out to find a job. Because she was unfamiliar with the place, she was afraid of losing the child, so she locked Ning Bai up at home.

Ning Bai couldn’t go anywhere. He stayed in that small room of less than ten square meters every day, day after day, from day to night, waiting for the woman to come back.

His whole world only consists of her.

Darkness and her.

She was very gentle and kind to him, but she would not let him go to school, go out, or leave her sight…

She was so afraid of losing him.

She was afraid that he would disappear in the blink of an eye, and she cared about him to the point of being mentally sick.

She would tell him over and over again, Mom loves you.

Ning Bai thought, I believe you, because you are the one who will pull me along with you even in death.

I believe you love me…

And so they just lived outside.

The man might be looking for them, or maybe not. Ning Bai didn’t know, and didn’t really care. He was just tired of it all.

The so-called love is just a knife used to hurt people.

What is love?

Betrayal, deception, quarrels, suspicion, hurt… everything is in the name of love.

He hated this morbid relationship and any relationship that bound both parties.

He hated that man.

If you don’t love someone anymore, if you can’t be faithful to them, don’t make promises to them casually, don’t say you love them anymore. Even if you are a little cold and ruthless, it is better than cheating again and again, making the person who loves you fall into the mud and unable to get out.

He hated this woman.

Why do you love someone who doesn’t love you? Why can’t you leave the other person in time when he doesn’t love you anymore? You keep saying you love him, but you keep quarreling with him, and finally you torture each other under the same roof. If you love him, wouldn’t it be better to just let him go?

But what’s the use of hating?

He could only watch all this happen over and over again, powerless… His world was filled with endless betrayals and quarrels, and that small room he couldn’t leave, and the woman who hugged him tightly and cut his face with scissors, determined to take him with her to death.

The woman really loves him.

But Ning Bai thought, I would rather you didn’t love me so much.

It was a weekend.

Holidays.

The woman was on holiday.

She came back from outside and took him out of the room. They went to the mall. There were a lot of people there. Ning Bai hadn’t seen anyone other than the woman for a long time.

At that moment, he suddenly didn’t want to go back.

He doesn’t want to go back to that room again.

So when the woman wasn’t paying attention, he suddenly let go of her hand and disappeared into the crowd.

Getting further and further away from her.

He heard the woman yelling his name like crazy, he heard the radio calling his name… but his heart was not moved at all, he just looked at the woman sitting on the ground and crying from a distance.

Then, he turned around and left.

Ning Bai suddenly opened his eyes, his pupils contracted, he opened his mouth and breathed rapidly, his chest rising and falling slightly. That nearly endless nightmare had tormented him for more than ten years.

Until later he finally stopped thinking about it.

He has left that place.

Left long ago.

No longer have to watch that man and woman hurt each other and blame each other…

Marriage is like a cage.

Eventually, the people in love become unrecognizable.

He raised his hand and gently touched his face. The wound there had already healed and could no longer be seen.

But the wound in his heart has scabbed over and is still there.

Even the word “love” would make him physically uncomfortable.

He doesn’t like women, because women are troublesome things, and if they fall in love with you, they will want to drag you to death with them.

He doesn’t believe in love. The so-called love will only become a bondage, making people ugly because of jealousy and suspicion.

If you can’t love only one person, if you can’t avoid betrayal for a lifetime, then don’t love others.

He doesn’t need anyone to love him.

Later, he met many people, but he was never moved by love and only looked for people like him. They each took what they needed, did not talk about feelings or love, and did not make any promises to each other, because promises that could not be fulfilled would eventually become lies.

Become a knife that hurts the one you love.

It’s fine like this.

Being moved can make a person passive, and love can make a person lose his mind.

No love, no hurt.

He won’t make the same mistakes they did.

He has been doing a good job too.

Keep all relationships within a proper boundary…stay away from anyone who says he loves him, and don’t love anyone.

This way he won’t get hurt.

It won’t hurt others either.

He always kept this in mind.

Don’t cross the line.

Until that day in the bar, a boy dressed in fancy clothes followed him and followed him all the way to the downstairs of his house.

He was enthusiastic, well-behaved, and obedient. No matter how hard he tried, he couldn’t drive him away… until he finally accepted him.

Accepted this person whom he originally disliked.

It was you who took the initiative first and approached first.

All love at first sight is just a matter of lust.

Although I knew you were just on a whim, I didn’t mind… because I can’t give you more, we each get what we need, and then separate before we fall in love.

Everything is as if nothing happened.

That’s what he thought.

But is he really not tempted? If not, why would he rush to get away from it? Why is he afraid to admit it?

Ning Bai closed his eyes and let out a bitter laugh from his throat.

He thought that when he let go of the woman’s hand 20 years ago, it’s gone there forever, but who would have thought that it would come back after all the twists and turns…

It turned out that when he left, another child appeared there and bore everything that he should have borne.

Only at this moment did he understand.

This never really ended.

It turns out that this is really a nightmare that he will never wake up from…

But I was still moved after all.

Fell in love with someone.

That person is you.