Lin Ziran spent a few days leisurely, and Jiang Xuan finally stopped calling him. It was unknown whether he had given up or was planning something else.

Ning Bai sent a message every day, but Lin Ziran never replied.

Is he really so good-tempered??

That day, Lin Ziran came back from eating outside again. As soon as he parked the car and got out, he saw Jiang Xuan waiting outside.

The man leaned against a black SUV and seemed to have been waiting for a long time. When he saw him coming back, he looked up with a stern face and deep eyes.

Lin Ziran was stunned for a moment, then quickly realized that Jiang Xuan was very powerful in the city, and he himself was not a low-key person, so it was normal for him to come to him.

However, he had arguments with Jiang Xuan last time and had already let go himself, so he was too lazy to pay attention to Jiang Xuan.

Lin Ziran didn’t even look at him and walked right past Jiang Xuan.

Jiang Xuan looked helpless. He strode over and grabbed Lin Ziran’s wrist. His dark eyes were sincere, and he said worriedly: “I heard about your family. Are you okay?”

Lin Ziran turned around and looked at him thoughtfully.

He suspected that Jiang Xuan had exposed this matter, but he had no evidence. Looking at Jiang Xuan’s worried expression, if he really did it, he must be a very cunning person.

Jiang Xuan’s plan should be like this: expose Ning Bai’s background → Lu Xiaodong is shocked and sad → Lu Maofeng and Feng Wan recognize him as their kin → Lu Xiaodong is ignored → Ning Bai returns to the Lu family → Lu Xiaodong is sad and desperate → Lu Xiaodong begins to resent Ning Bai → Lu Xiaodong runs away from home → Lu Maofeng and Feng Wan are indifferent → Lu Xiaodong falls into the dust → Jiang Xuan makes a brilliant appearance → takes care of the poor little thing that no one loves and no one cares about → Lu Xiaodong finds that Jiang Xuan is the only good person in the world → Lu Xiaodong throws himself into his arms → Jiang Xuan successfully keeps the poor little thing in captivity

The plan worked!

He had thought of everything. Lu Xiaodong had been with Jiang Xuan for so long that it was impossible for him to know nothing about Lu Xiaodong, so Ning Bai’s origin was his trump card! If it was the real Lu Xiaodong, in such a desperate and painful situation, maybe he would really grab Jiang Xuan like a life-saving straw?

Because when a person loses everything, it is hard for him to resist even a little kindness and compassion.

At this time, Jiang Xuan’s previous mistakes didn’t matter anymore because Lu Xiaodong had already given up on himself. He needed someone who could love and protect him. Even if Jiang Xuan didn’t really love him, he would definitely show that he loved him very much! In this world where he had nowhere to go, Lu Xiaodong could only find the last warmth from Jiang Xuan… and then he would completely become a plaything controlled by Jiang Xuan.

Jiang Xuan could even go so far as to coax him and resolve his inner resentment and pain by turning around and killing Lu Maofeng’s family, who were of no use to him…

Jiang Xuan has countless ways to make Lu Xiaodong inseparable from him and unable to escape from his grasp.

Lin Ziran almost shuddered. He felt that this person was a little scary. At this moment, he finally realized that he was the ruthless and domineering boss in the script. He was far from being as simple as he seemed… Fortunately, he was not Lu Xiaodong at all, so he would not be fooled!

Even if he moves 10000 steps back and says that this matter was not exposed by Jiang Xuan, he has no interest in getting entangled with Jiang Xuan.

Lin Ziran raised the corner of his lips and said calmly: “Don’t worry about my business.”

Jiang Xuan seemed a little sad. He said in a hoarse voice: “I know you are blaming me for what happened before. I was wrong that time… but I am really worried about you.”

Lin Ziran said: “Oh.”

Jiang Xuan asked again: “Don’t you believe that I like you?”

Lin Ziran smiled: “Like me? Do you think I will believe it?”

To him, it was nothing more than Jiang Xuan’s possessiveness, which was why he did such a thing. Or maybe he liked him a little bit… but so what? He himself doesn’t like this person.

Jiang Xuan looked at Lin Ziran’s indifferent gaze, which no longer had the same admiration and worship he once had, and he would no longer smile at him in a flattering way.

It’s still the same person, but it seems so far away.

Like him or not?

At first, he thought it wasn’t love, but just possessiveness, because he suddenly felt a little interested and wanted to play around, and he was reluctant to give him to someone else. For someone like Lu Xiaodong, he should welcome him with a smile even if he played with him. He didn’t like people who disobeyed and rejected him.

But later, he found out that he was wrong. This child actually had a very stubborn side. He looked fawning and lowly, but in fact, he was very tough.

If he says he doesn’t like you, then he doesn’t like you anymore.

No longer trying to please you.

No longer chasing you.

Jiang Xuan was never short of people around him. No matter men or women, there were countless people who were more beautiful than Lu Xiaodong. He even thought about letting it go because competing for such a thing as Lu Xiaodong would make him a joke, but why couldn’t he let it go in the end?

In order to get this person, he did not hesitate to attack Ning Bai and expose Ning Bai’s origin.

All schemes were in place.

He didn’t know why he was obsessed with such a child, and he didn’t know what kind of feeling this was… But as soon as he thought about him leaving completely, never appearing by his side again, and drifting further and further away, he suddenly couldn’t tolerate such an outcome.

Since he doesn’t want to let go, he will get him by any means necessary.

This is Jiang Xuan’s code of conduct.

Jiang Xuan lowered his eyes and looked at Lin Ziran. His eyes were deep and helpless, and he slowly sighed: “What do I need you to believe that I like you?”

Lin Ziran also looked at him. It was rare that Jiang Xuan could be so humble in order to deceive him. Unfortunately, he made a mistake.

Because he himself never cared whether the other person liked him or not.

Since he doesn’t care, there’s no question of whether he believes it or not, because even if this person really likes him, what does it have to do with him?

Lin Ziran laughed and looked at Jiang Xuan: “You got one thing wrong.”

Jiang Xuan asked: “What’s the matter?”

Lin Ziran raised his eyebrows: “It doesn’t matter whether I believe you like me or not. What matters is that I don’t like you and don’t want you to bother me again.”

After saying that, Lin Ziran turned around and left.

Jiang Xuan said from behind him: “Do you hate Lu Maofeng?”

Lin Ziran suddenly stopped and looked back at him.

Jiang Xuan’s dark eyes were filled with a deep and dark color. He spoke as if nothing had happened, his voice low and hoarse with a hint of temptation: “If you hate him, I can make him kneel down and beg you. Everything you want… I can give it to you.”

Lin Ziran looked at him steadily, thinking, LaoZi really guessed it.

This proposal is indeed tempting, but although he can’t stand Lu Maofeng, this scumbag father, it’s not worth it to sell himself to Jiang Xuan for this matter.

Besides, it’s just a game…

Lin Ziran said word by word: “All your things are not what I want.”

Only the former Lu Xiaodong would value it as a rarity.

Jiang Xuan looked at the boy’s extremely indifferent eyes and listened to his calm words, his expression slightly frozen. He thought that this was the boy’s most vulnerable time, he thought he needed his help, he thought he would be hurt and feel hatred, and he would take the opportunity to take him under his wing, but the result was not like this…

The boy was stronger than he thought, or he had learned how to hide his pain.

Even if he falls into the dust, he will no longer wag his tail and beg for mercy.

Won’t fall down crying…

Won’t be blinded by hatred and jealousy…

The blow actually gave him a new lease of life. He began to learn how to let go and blossomed with an unprecedented dazzling brilliance…

Jiang Xuan’s heart slowly sank. He felt that his plan might have deviated and was not developing in the direction he expected.

This method may make the boy leave Ning Bai, but it can not make him get closer to himself.

Because once he no longer cared about Lu Maofeng, without love or hatred, he would have no reason to continue to rely on himself.

Seeing the boy walking further and further away, Jiang Xuan quickly stepped forward and grabbed the boy’s wrist again.

Lin Ziran shook his hand but failed to shake it off. He said coldly: “Mr. Jiang is also a well-known person. He doesn’t want to make a scene here, right?”

Jiang Xuan looked at the boy’s face. His dark eyes were filled with anger, as if they were burning with fire. He looked at him, neither servile nor overbearing… Jiang Xuan’s heart suddenly jumped.

He seemed to understand something.

Maybe this is the real side of the boy.

The flattery, deliberate rebellion, and deliberate degradation in the past were all just his disguises, the protective colors he put on himself. He wanted to get Lu Maofeng’s affirmation and wanted to be valued by himself. He tried so hard to gain a sense of existence, but no one cared about him…

One day, when he finally realized that no matter what he did, he couldn’t get what he wanted. He gave up becoming the person he hated and stopped trying to please anyone.

But he is more charming than ever before.

But all of this was once covered up by his decadent appearance, so that he was lost in the crowd and no one discovered his goodness and persistence.

Lin Ziran felt that Jiang Xuan’s eyes were a little disturbing and frowned and said: “Please let go.”

Jiang Xuan’s eyes fell on the boy’s face. The boy’s eyes were blazing with fire, and his soft lips opened and closed, as if inviting him… He suddenly took a step forward, directly pressed Lin Ziran against the car door, pinched his chin, and lowered his head to kiss him.

Lin Ziran was almost in tears from the kiss. He was almost furious at this bastard who would forcefully kiss him at every turn!

【Lin Ziran: If I can beat him, I will make him kneel down and call me daddy today! 】

【System:……】

【 Lin Ziran: This bastard only knows how to bully the weak and fear the strong. Do you think he dares to do this to Ning Bai : ) 】

【System:……】

Lin Ziran couldn’t help but think of the original plot. In the original plot, although Jiang Xuan and Ning Bai broke up and got back together, and their love story was extremely bloody, there was no forced love at all. He respected Ning Bai from beginning to end. All his cruelty was reflected in dealing with cannon fodder and enemies. When he pursued Ning Bai, he was not like this. On the contrary, he was very humble and polite. Why did he like to use force when it came to him?

How could you do this? You are broken, you know that? !

Wait… Lin Ziran’s expression suddenly froze. Jiang Xuan’s character was not broken. He had always been very thorough!

Respect Ning Bai, don’t look down on opponents like Ning Bai, but when facing cannon fodder like Lu Xiaodong, he is ruthless and does everything he can. Isn’t that what he is doing now? From the previous KTV incident and their birth origin incident, he has always been like this!

Although the person he pursued changed from Ning Bai to himself, his attitude towards Ning Bai and himself was essentially the same as the original plot.

There is no harm without comparison, and he gets even angrier when he thinks about it this way.

Are you really looking down on him and thinking he’s easy to bully? !

In the final analysis, Jiang Xuan never knew how to treat Lu Xiaodong equally. In his eyes, Lu Xiaodong was just a fool who was easy to bully and deceive.

Lin Ziran took advantage of the breath break to push Jiang Xuan away and punched him in the face!

Jiang Xuan turned his head sideways after being hit, and seemed to be very surprised that Lin Ziran would attack him, looking at him with his inky black eyes.

Lin Ziran was satisfied after the punch, but he was a little scared when he saw Jiang Xuan. He was afraid that this guy would suddenly explode. If he couldn’t hold back and tried to use the prison-imprisonment trick again, wouldn’t he have to find a way to quit now… Although he was a little panicked, he still showed an angry look and pretended not to be afraid at all!

Jiang Xuan looked at Lin Ziran deeply, and just when Lin Ziran was extremely nervous, he suddenly laughed softly: “It’s okay.”

Lin Ziran: “?”

Jiang Xuan looked at the boy, who was obviously a little scared but pretended to be strong and unyielding, with a gentle and doting look in his eyes: “Don’t be afraid, I won’t hurt you.”

Lin Ziran: “…”

There were not many people in the parking lot, and Lin Ziran did not dare to stay here any longer. He looked at Jiang Xuan coldly and spat out one word: “Get lost.”

Then he quickened his pace and left.

Jiang Xuan did not stop him this time. He just looked at the boy’s back getting farther and farther away, his eyes darkening.

Maybe this time, I calculated wrong…

But I won’t let go easily.

………………

Ning Bai didn’t get off work until 11pm, but he didn’t go home. Instead, he drove to the bottom of a hotel and looked up at the scattered lights above.

He had already found out where Lin Ziran lived, and he would come here every night to take a look.

But he never went up once.

Because he didn’t know how to face this person.

Beg for his forgiveness, say I love you, say I have no intention of taking anything from you? Or simply lie to him that your parents actually love you?

It’s all so pale.

Because only by experiencing it yourself can you understand the pain that goes deep into your bones…

Words cannot heal wounds.

To the boy, my existence was the greatest harm to him. I made his existence meaningless and made him look like a joke… Although he ran away from that home, did his heart escape from there?

Even he himself paid such a huge price, let alone this not-so-smart child?

Is he sad now?

But what he needs is definitely not his own comfort.

Ning Bai showed a self-deprecating smile on his lips, suppressing the bitterness in his eyes.

………………

Xue Ze didn’t dare to come to Ning Bai recently. He would avoid Ning Bai whenever he met him. This was a mess. He was afraid of such troubles, but he had to come today.

Xue Ze pushed open the door and said cautiously: “Well, your mother is here again, oh, your biological mother…”

Ning Bai didn’t even raise his eyes: “Not meeting.”

Xue Ze was going crazy. Was his life easy? He had to help Ning Bai drive his mother out every day! He felt that his hands were stained with sinful blood! He could not hold on any longer!

Xue Ze was about to cry: “Why don’t you go and talk to her clearly? Auntie comes here every day and many people are asking me what’s going on. I can’t hide it any longer. You don’t want others to mention you as the cold-blooded bastard who doesn’t even care about your own mother, right? Of course I know you don’t care about your reputation, but why don’t you find someone else to deal with her next time…”

Seeing that Ning Bai was still indifferent, Xue Ze said in a long-winded way: “Please go and take a look. She looks like she won’t stop until she sees you. You won’t solve the problem by avoiding her like this!”

Ning Bai paused while holding the pen.

After a long while, he stood up and said: “Okay, I’ll go see her.”

Feng Wan has been waiting at Ning Bai’s company every day recently. She doesn’t dare to barge in directly, fearing that it will make Ning Bai even angrier. She thinks that with her patience, she might be able to impress Ning Bai one day and make him willing to come out to see her…

People were coming and going around her, and occasionally someone would look at her curiously, but she didn’t care.

She just wanted to see Ning Bai.

Suddenly, a person appeared in front of her.

Feng Wan raised her head and saw Ning Bai’s face, revealing a look of great surprise: “Xiao Bai, you are finally willing to see me.”

Ning Bai looked at the woman deeply, with a cold smile on his lips. You are still the same as before, always doing what you want to do unilaterally, and never know when to let go decisively, otherwise it will only bring harm to each other.

You keep clinging to someone who is not worth your efforts and continued love.

But you turn a blind eye to the people you should care about.

There was a hint of sarcasm in his eyes, but his tone was calm: “It’s not convenient to talk here, why don’t we go to your house and talk.”

Feng Wan stood up suddenly and spoke incoherently with excitement: “Are you willing to go home with Mom?”

Ning Bai did not deny it, he just turned around and walked out.

Feng Wan had been talking to him all the way, but Ning Bai didn’t respond. He was just absentmindedly thinking about what the place where the boy lived would look like. He suddenly wanted to see it with his own eyes…

Twenty years have passed, and the Lu family has moved several times before coming to this city, so it is naturally not the home that Ning Bai remembered.

Ning Bai didn’t want to go back to the home where this woman lived, but this was Lu Xiaodong’s home.

He suddenly wanted to take a look.

Feng Wan knew nothing about it, and enthusiastically led him upstairs, saying as they walked: “I have prepared a room for you, see if there is anything you need, your Dad and I will buy it for you, and we can live in harmony as a family in the future…”

Ning Bai said: “Which is Lu Xiaodong’s room?”

Feng Wan was reluctant to mention Lu Xiaodong in front of Ning Bai, probably because she felt that having another son was like a betrayal to Ning Bai. She said silently: “At that time, your Dad felt sorry for me and insisted on bringing a child back to raise… This room is his…”

Ning Bai walked into the room.

The room was simple and clean. Although it had a bit of the casualness of a child, it did not look dirty or messy, which was somewhat beyond his expectations.

He turned to Feng Wan and said: “I want to be alone for a while.”

Feng Wan didn’t want to leave, but when she met Ning Bai’s indifferent eyes, her throat suddenly stagnated, so she had to nod and leave.

Ning Bai’s fingers gently brushed across the desk. The books on the desk were neatly arranged, but because no one lived there, there was a light layer of dust on the desk. On the desk was a family photo. The boy in the photo was smiling brightly, and the man and woman behind him were gentle. They looked like a beautiful family, but perhaps this was just a deliberately created illusion. A photo could not represent anything…

The bed sheet was a simple gray checkered pattern, and the walls were white, without too much embellishment. This room was completely different from the first impression Lu Xiaodong gave him.

At that time, Lu Xiaodong appeared in front of him, with dyed gray hair, earrings and smoky makeup, looking frivolous and wanton, like a street thug, but this room was just an ordinary student’s room.

Looking at this, it seems as if he can see what the boy really looks like at home…

All those past inconsistencies seem to have been explained.

Rebellion is his protective color, but only in his own little space can he be himself.

So when he no longer dresses like that, he gives people a clean and refreshing feeling. Even if he is a little cunning and mean, and will go against him and provoke him, people still can’t hate him because he is not like that in nature… Deliberately pretending to be hated can only deceive himself.

Ning Bai glanced at the bedside table and suddenly saw that the drawer had a gap, probably because kid left in a hurry and didn’t close it properly.

He subconsciously walked over, opened it, and found a notebook with a black cover.

Ning Bai took out the notebook.

Then he smiled bitterly. Did this child still have the habit of writing a diary? He was even more sensitive than he thought…

This was a very private thing. Ning Bai originally did not intend to read it, but he hesitated for a moment while holding the book. He wanted to understand the boy, and finally his curiosity gained the upper hand.

Ning Bai’s eyes showed a trace of struggle, but he still opened the book.

[Mom asked me to learn piano. Actually, I don’t really like it, but I will study hard if I can make mom happy.]

[I learned a new song today and I wanted to play it for Mom, but she was very unhappy after listening to it. She said that I played it badly and it was useless… But the teacher praised me for playing well, so why didn’t mom like it…]

[I didn’t do well in the exam today, even worse than the last time. I know I’m going to disappoint my parents again.

Maybe I am not smart enough, not capable enough, so no matter what I do, I can’t do it well and can’t fulfill their wishes…]

[Do they really love me?

Sometimes, I think it’s good for them to scold me, but they always look at me with disappointment. Sometimes I don’t know whether I disappoint them or they never have any hope for me. ]

[I dyed my hair and got my ears pierced, and they finally got angry and scolded me. It turns out that they would get angry whenever I made a mistake, but at least they didn’t ignore me today.]

The look in Ning Bai’s eyes became more and more painful. He almost couldn’t bear to read it anymore, but he still turned the page.

[I don’t want to work hard anymore, because working hard is never useful, because I was born useless.

Everyone is born with their own meaning of existence, but what is my meaning?]

[I started spending money recklessly and going out to fool around. I finally had a lot of friends. They would flatter me and we would do whatever we wanted together. I didn’t really like this, but I seemed to have found a sense of existence. When I was with them, I felt that I was very important.

But they are nice to me, is it because I have money?]

[I know no one will love me, no one will like me, who would like someone like me, useless, stupid and annoying.

But I don’t care, because I already knew it.

It doesn’t matter if I’m hated…I really don’t care at all.

No one would like a useless person like me.

I don’t need anyone to love me.]

Ning Bai finally couldn’t bear to read it anymore, and his fingers holding the notebook turned white and trembled slightly.

He closed his eyes in pain.

The nightmare that he had deliberately forgotten came back again. He vowed never to be dominated by those nightmares again. He had become strong enough. He let go of the woman’s hand and walked into the crowd. He thought everything was over.

But it’s not.

Even though he had expected and guessed it, when he saw this diary with his own eyes, he realized that reality is always more cruel.

Now I know how you have been through these twenty years.

Sorry……

I now know that all your sufferings are related to me.

In a trance, he seemed to have returned to that silent and gloomy world.

This time he’s not alone.

There was a little child, he was ignorant, naive, and stood there blankly. He didn’t know why he existed, nor why he was there. He just looked at the man and woman in front of him.

He tried hard to be loved by his so-called parents, and used up his little strength to try to do better. However, no matter how hard he tried, he could not be recognized, because in the eyes of man and woman, he would never be as good as him.

It is always the case that what is lost is the best.

And he was just an unwelcome substitute.

But the boy didn’t know.

He thought that he was not outstanding enough, that he was not good enough, and he began to loathe himself, and finally became what he hated.

He was used to the disappointed looks from man and woman, and used to their indifference and neglect.

He tried his best to get the attention…

But it always fails in the end.

Every time he gets up after falling, he only falls harder and more miserably.

Then he finally gave up.

He thinks it’s all his fault, he’s useless, he didn’t care about being hated…

No need to be loved.

Because he doesn’t deserve to be loved.

He gradually accepted this fact.

In fact, it is not like that. Ning Bai slowly opened his eyes, a hint of bitterness appeared in his eyes, and his fingers brushed across the diary.

It’s not like this.

You are good, you are a good kid…none of this is your fault.

The one who is wrong is the one who doesn’t know how to love you.

Them.

And me.