Feng Wan was waiting outside the door, feeling uneasy. She didn’t know what Ning Bai thought of Lu Xiaodong and why he cared about Lu Xiaodong’s affairs… Did he know Lu Xiaodong before? Otherwise, why would he blame her for Lu Xiaodong’s affairs?

No, that won’t happen… What reason does Ning Bai have to blame her because of Lu Xiaodong?

There should be no intersection between the two of them.

The reason why Ning Bai was so indifferent to her must be that he was blaming her for losing him back then, and Lu Xiaodong was just an excuse.

She was still young at that time, less than 30 years old, and she valued love more than anything else. She regarded Ning Bai as her all-important hope, and she tried every possible way to save her love and her family.

Unfortunately, she used the wrong method and lost her child.

This is her punishment.

Lu Maofeng didn’t dare to divorce her, so in order to please her, he gave her a child to raise, but this was not what she wanted at all.

No one can replace her Xiao Bai.

Xiao Bai is her only child.

Lu Xiaodong was just brought by Lu Maofeng to coax her. Did that man think that she would forget his mistakes? She would never forget it!

Feng Wan knew that she had neglected Lu Xiaodong, but she did not feel that she had let the child down.

She gave him food, clothes, money, and the best of everything.

And she didn’t have any requirements for him… This child wasn’t as pretty as Xiao Bai, not as smart as Xiao Bai, not as sensible as Xiao Bai, and couldn’t read people’s expressions. He couldn’t even compare to one of Xiao Bai’s toes.

But she didn’t ask him to be excellent, did she?

If it weren’t for them, maybe the child would still be in the orphanage and live a worse life.

She thought she had done her best for Lu Xiaodong.

There is nothing much to say. It is just that the child does not know what is good for him and does not learn his lesson.

Feng Wan never took Lu Xiaodong to heart. She had been missing her only son Xiao Bai for more than 20 years, and now she finally found him.

But Ning Bai refused to forgive her.

Feng Wan looked anxious.

Just then, the door opened.

The man stood there indifferently, looking at her with his pale amber eyes. His calm expression seemed to contain deep disappointment, and he didn’t know whether it was hatred towards himself or her.

Feng Wan suddenly felt a little uneasy, as if something was wrong. She quickly stepped forward and said with a smile: “Xiao Bai, are you staying at home tonight?”

Ning Bai didn’t take anything but Lu Xiaodong’s diary. He held the diary in his hand and looked at Feng Wan calmly: “I won’t come back.”

There is nothing left here for him to miss.

Feng Wan was immediately shocked. She looked at Ning Bai with a pale face and begged: “Why? Mom really loves you. Can’t you give Mom a chance?”

Ning Bai looked at her, his chest was cold, he didn’t even want to say another word to her, but in the end he slowly said: “Do you really love me?”

Who do you love, me or the child who can meet all your expectations and hopes?

But when I let go of your hand, I had already given up on you.

The one you should really love is the child who still has expectations of you and still hopes for your love.

Ning Bai pursed his lips tightly, but he didn’t say a word in the end.

Because if someone doesn’t understand, it’s meaningless to say more.

I will make up for the mistakes you made, but not because I forgive you… just because I love him.

Ning Bai turned and left.

Feng Wan was anxious. She chased after him with tears in her eyes and said: “Xiao Bai, Mom really loves you. Where are you going? Mom has always loved you…”

But Ning Bai’s steps were steady and powerful, and he never looked back from beginning to end.

Feng Wan looked at Ning Bai’s back as he left, her face full of despair and helplessness, as if she had returned to 20 years ago, when this child accidentally got separated from her and was lost in the crowd. No matter how she called him, he never responded to her.

He is getting further and further away from me…

This departure lasted twenty years.

In the past twenty years, she has been regretting it all the time. She regrets not holding her child’s hand tightly. She was worried that he would die, worried that he would suffer, worried that he would not live well without her, because no one would ever love him more than her……

But why is he unwilling to come back now that they have finally met again?

Why?

Feng Wan cried and said: “Xiao Bai, Mom didn’t lose you on purpose. Mom loves you very much. Do you believe Mom?”

Ning Bai finally looked back at her, with a sarcastic smile on his lips. You still don’t know that it wasn’t you who lost me, but I left on my own.

But he didn’t say it.

Because he will never come back here again.

Ning Bai got in the car, closed the door in front of Feng Wan, started the car, and left. He placed the diary on the passenger seat.

The black notebook lay there quietly.

Ning Bai glanced at the diary, his lips turned pale, his face was cold, and only then did his eyes reveal deep worry.

He was afraid that Lu Xiaodong would be upset.

Things were much more serious than he had imagined.

Ning Bai’s fingers tightly gripped the steering wheel, and with his other hand, he called Xue Ze, saying in a deep voice: “Please help me check where Lu Xiaodong is now?”

………………

Lin Ziran had a hot pot meal outside alone. When he swiped his card and saw the balance on his card, he finally showed a slightly sad expression.

He is running out of money!

He had been spending so much time recently, living in a luxury suite in a five-star hotel, eating all kinds of extravagant meals… He was squandering money in this game without even thinking about saving, so he was almost out of money.

After all, it’s in-game money, so it doesn’t feel like he is spending it, it’s like he is spending game coins…

One hundred thousand is gone in the blink of an eye.

Then he thought about how he spent hundreds of thousands of yuan on clothes in order to pursue Ning Bai. He was really out of his mind to buy so many clothes. If he had known that the mission could not be completed, he would have kept the money to enjoy himself! Who would spend it on that damn picky guy!

Investment losses.

Lin Ziran wanted to sell the clothes back to Ning Bai, but he couldn’t do such a shameless thing. He could be shameless, but he still had to save some face for Lu Xiaodong…

【Lin Ziran: System, I’m running out of money. What should I do? Wuwuwuwu】

【System: Go back and ask your cheap parents for it?】

【Lin Ziran: Even if I starve to death outside in this life, I will never take a penny from them! 】

【System: In this life? 】

【Lin Ziran: These few days…】

Lin Ziran touched his chin. His money was almost gone. He estimated that he would not be able to stay in this world for much longer.

After all, he is playing games to enjoy life, not to suffer.

Lin Ziran drove back to the hotel and thought about the balance on his card. He realized that he couldn’t stay in this five-star hotel anymore…

Suddenly, an idea flashed in his mind, he could actually live in the dormitory!

Lu Xiaodong used to hang out all day so he didn’t live in the dormitory, but there was still room for a dormitory, so Lin Ziran did what he thought and immediately checked out of the hotel suite and drove to Lu Xiaodong’s school.

He is a student, and there is nothing wrong with him living in the dormitory. On the contrary, he feels very close to it.

This is a good university in the city with a good environment. Although Lu Xiaodong is not as smart and capable as Ning Bai, he is not mentally retarded. On the contrary, he works very hard. If he had not given up on himself and ended up like this, he could have lived a good life. After all, the Lu family really didn’t treat him badly in terms of money.

He was just wrong in expecting someone who would never love him to love him.

Hurting himself for someone who doesn’t love him.

Lin Ziran came to Lu Xiaodong’s dormitory according to the information provided by the system. Because he had never lived there before, he didn’t even have the key to the dormitory, which made him stand at the door in embarrassment. Fortunately, he met his roommate…

The roommate didn’t expect to meet him here, and asked curiously: “Xiaodong, why are you here? What’s the matter?”

Lin Ziran scratched his head: “I see school is about to start, so I plan to live on campus this year.”

The roommate was very surprised. He didn’t know Lu Xiaodong very well. He felt that he was a rebellious second-generation rich kid. However, college students are generally innocent and enthusiastic. He didn’t think much about it and smiled happily: “It’s great that you want to live on campus. Don’t you have a key? I’ll make one for you later. Let’s go in first.”

The roommate is called Xia Hang, who is enthusiastic and cheerful, and is also Lu Xiaodong’s class monitor. He worked part-time nearby during the summer vacation, so he has been living on campus and has not returned. Now there is still some time before the official start of school, and other roommates have not returned yet. He was quite surprised to see Lu Xiaodong suddenly come to school.

After all, Lu Xiaodong is the kind of person who won’t come to the dormitory even when school starts.

Lin Ziran followed Xia Hang into the dormitory, looked around, and quickly found where his bed was.

Xia Hang looked at it and blushed for the first time. He said embarrassedly, “I’ll help you clean it up.”

Because Lu Xiaodong didn’t live on campus all year round, his bed was filled with miscellaneous items piled up by other students, including pots, pans, quilts, and everything else.

Lin Ziran didn’t mind at all, it’s normal!

He had a good impression of this class monitor. He thought that innocent and simple college students were cute. Lin Ziran got along with him easily and happily. Compared with getting along with a domineering boss like Jiang Xuan or a control freak like Ning Bai, college students of the same age were so cute!

Wuwuwu, he suddenly felt that this world was so kind!

Lu Xiaodong is such a bad boy. He doesn’t know how to make the most of his good life. He has to waste his life with his scumbag father, scumbag mother, scumbag top and scumbag bottom…

If there really is such a person, Lin Ziran will definitely hit him on the head to wake him up.

But Lin Ziran sighed again when he thought about it. He was also talking without any pain. From Lu Xiaodong’s perspective, how could he let go of his parents whom he loved so hard? He had no right to blame Lu Xiaodong.

Everyone has his or her own life and his or her own persistence.

How can one understand the pain of others if they are not in it?

Others have no right to comment.

The two of them made the bed together. To express his gratitude, Lin Ziran invited Xia Hang out for dinner. Xia Hang was a very enthusiastic and outgoing person. Although he was not familiar with Lu Xiaodong before, they became very familiar with each other after a meal.

Xia Hang looked at Lin Ziran with some confusion. He felt that the classment Lu was actually very cheerful and had a good personality. Why did he make himself look so non-mainstream? He had initially thought that he would be a social person…

However, classmate Lu has changed his ways now. Not only does he dress normally, he also stops hanging out with the gangsters in society. Xia Hang was very happy for him. From now on, they will be good friends in the same dormitory!

Lin Ziran lived here for a few days and quickly adapted to the place.

He originally lived on campus in real life. Lu Xiaodong’s school dormitory was in good condition, with air conditioning and other facilities. Lin Ziran did not feel uncomfortable living there, but felt more at home. So why did he insist on living at home in the first place…

And have to look at the cold faces of his scumbag parents every day.

He should have moved out as soon as the plot collapsed!

He was too restrained before, so he held himself back.

That day, Lin Ziran was lying on the bed when he suddenly had an idea.

He doesn’t have much money left, but he actually still has an asset to bring out! Money is not a problem!

Lin Ziran immediately got up from the bed and rushed out.

【System: What’s wrong with you? 】

【Lin Ziran: I know how to make money! 】

He rushed downstairs to the dormitory and looked at the fluorescent green Lamborghini with disdain. Who knows who has led Lu Xiaodong’s aesthetic taste astray, and he actually likes a car of this color!

Shiny enough to blind people’s eyes.

In the past, he had bought such a car just to attract attention, but now he lives on campus, and students should look like students. Why does he need a Lamborghini? Or a fluorescent green Lamborghini?

It looks unlucky!

So it’s green, right?

Lin Ziran immediately called the second-hand car seller. Since he didn’t ask for a high price, the seller drove the car out for evaluation and quickly transferred 200,000 yuan to Lin Ziran the next day.

Looking at the 200,000 yuan, Lin Ziran felt that the money came so easily, and his mood became happy again.

He can still have fun.

Why do you need a Lamborghini? Isn’t a shared bike good enough? It’s enough for school use! It’s healthy, environmentally friendly and can also help you exercise!

Under the tree-lined avenue of the school, the air was fresh and the breeze was blowing. Lin Ziran had just finished his meal and was riding his bicycle beautifully along the path. When he returned to his dormitory building, he unexpectedly met Ning Bai’s eyes.

Lin Ziran: “…”

Does this guy want to scare him to death? Why did he come to his school?

Evil spirits, retreat!

Lin Ziran locked his bike expressionlessly, then walked up as if he didn’t see Ning Bai.

Ning Bai has been waiting here for a long time.

His eyes fell on the boy’s face.

The boy had a clean and handsome face with small beads of sweat on his forehead. He was wearing a simple white T-shirt, just like an ordinary student. Oh, even the shiny earrings were gone.

It looks good, but Ning Bai knows it’s just an appearance.

He looked at the yellow bicycle.

Pain appeared in his eyes.

Has this kid fallen to this point, living in a dormitory, riding a bicycle, and where is his car… has it been sold?

He already had nothing, except a little money, and he had never received any care that belonged to him, any love that he expected, but now even the little money he had left was gone?

Ning Bai thought about what he had done.

He didn’t know this child at all at that time. He was ignorant and acted as the executioner, depriving the boy of the few things he had, and making him spend money to buy clothes… ordering him to do things for him, just because he chased him and said he liked him, He naturally trampled on this love.

It never occurred to him that maybe the kid just wanted someone to love him.

So he pretends to be rebellious in order to gain attention and a sense of existence.

If he had been more attentive at the time and noticed earlier his fragile heart that longed to be loved beneath his rebellious appearance, he would have been more gentle, instead of letting his own indifference leave more wounds on his already broken heart.

He should have understood sooner…

Ning Bai’s heart seemed to be clenched, his chest rose and fell slightly, and he followed Lin Ziran up.

As soon as Lin Ziran went upstairs, he found that Ning Bai had followed him, and he immediately felt a toothache.

He didn’t understand why Ning Bai came here. When he left the Lu family, he was more worried about Jiang Xuan, not Ning Bai… Because Ning Bai was cold-hearted by nature, not the kind of person who would pester you. If you don’t provoke him, he won’t provoke you either.

His refusal last time was very obvious, so Lin Ziran never thought that Ning Bai would come to him.

This is the school dormitory. When Lin Ziran saw classmates coming and going nearby, he still had some dignity and didn’t want to make things too awkward. In the end, he let Ning Bai into the dormitory and asked impatiently: “What are you doing here?”

Ning Bai looked at the boy’s cold and distant face, with pain in his eyes, and even the blood flowing through his heart was cold. He had not appeared in these days, constantly restraining himself from appearing in front of the boy, because he knew that at this point, any of his actions would not be forgiven or understood.

But he couldn’t stay any longer.

Thinking of the contents of the diary, an unprecedented fear overwhelmed his heart. He was afraid that if he didn’t look at the other person for a blink of an eye, the other person would completely disappear from his world.

If something happened to the child due to his negligence, he would never be able to forgive himself.

Ning Bai spoke slowly, his eyes were complicated, and his voice was low and hoarse: “I was worried about you.”

Jiang Xuan had said this before, and Lin Ziran was almost numb. He thought to himself that this was indeed a melodramatic script. No one cared about Lu Xiaodong before, but now that I don’t lick you anymore, you all come to say you’re worried about me…

It is indeed an irrefutable truth that only when you lose something do you know how to cherish it!

Lin Ziran was in a trance.

【Lin Ziran: I now feel that I am probably not following the script of the top protagonist, but the script of the bottom protagonist! 】

【System: Don’t mention it, it’s a bit similar…】

【Lin Ziran: Terrible.】

Lin Ziran quickly came back to his senses from his thoughts. His personal impression of Ning Bai was just like that. Although this guy was picky and always ordered him around, that was all because of his previous personality. It was unfair to blame Ning Bai for everything. Besides, he had saved him from Jiang Xuan.

For example, he hates military training, school, and exams, gets grumpy every morning, occasionally swears when he loses a game, and secretly curses when he encounters a picky boss at work… But this kind of hatred is just that, and his hatred for Ning Bai is probably just at this level. It would be funny to say that there is a deep hatred, not to mention that the other party is a game NPC… It’s okay to just swear, but wouldn’t it be unpleasant to argue with an NPC?

But after all, he had been asked to run errands for half a month, so Lin Ziran couldn’t like him anymore.

So strictly speaking, he now feels like a passerby who he neither likes nor hates towards Ning Bai… As long as you don’t cause me trouble, I will treat you as if you don’t exist.

But from Lu Xiaodong’s perspective, he would not want to see Ning Bai.

Lin Ziran thought about it for a long time and reread the script. He felt that Lu Xiaodong didn’t really like Ning Bai. This kid was probably pursuing Ning Bai on a whim! The original plot said that Lu Xiaodong was obsessed with Ning Bai because he fell in love with him at first sight. Later, when his pursuit failed, he tried to drug Ning Bai and rap* him. He didn’t understand Ning Bai at all, and he did this out of jealousy. It didn’t seem like true love at all…

Lu Xiaodong doesn’t know what love is. He has never been loved. Because he doesn’t hang out with the right friends, he naturally picks up some bad habits… His life was actually twisted and sad.

When he meets a good-looking person, he pursues them. If he fails to catch up with them, he turns his love into hatred and wants revenge. He might do that just to destroy himself.

The result was what he wanted.

Lu Xiaodong’s love was not real love, but an attempt at rebellion. It was just a child’s prank after all, and he couldn’t stop it in the end.

Now that Ning Bai’s background has been revealed, it is even more impossible for him to like Ning Bai.

On the contrary, he might hate Ning Bai.

Because this is the person he can never compare to, the most beloved child in his parents’ hearts, and what is he? Nothing.

Ning Bai looked at the boy’s changing expression.

Sometimes sad, sometimes disappointed, sometimes sighing, and finally a look of sorrow.

All this made him very uncomfortable.

Sure enough, although you act as if it doesn’t matter, how can you really not care? I’m sorry that my existence makes you suffer like this…

Ning Bai’s voice was low and painful. He looked at Lin Ziran seriously and said: “I want to tell you…”

You are fine, you don’t need to live for anyone, and you don’t need to feel sad for not being able to meet their expectations…

You didn’t do anything wrong, they did.

But when these words came to his throat, he suddenly couldn’t speak any more, because he shouldn’t have known these things. The boy used this appearance to disguise himself because he didn’t want to expose his vulnerability to others.

He didn’t want others to look at him with pity.

He wanted to protect his dignity.

Ning Bai’s Adam’s apple rolled, and finally he slowly said: “I won’t go to Lu family’s home.”

Lin Ziran: “……?”

So you came to school just to tell me this? Does it have anything to do with me whether you go back home or not? I won’t go back home either, whoever wants to go back home can go!

Lin Ziran looked indifferent and said: “Oh, whatever you want.”

Ning Bai looked at him sadly: “Don’t you care?”

Lin Ziran: “I don’t care.”

Ning Bai looked at his cold eyes, but his heart tightened again. Do you really not care? If you really don’t care, why did you run away from home? Why didn’t you want to go back even though you had no money? Why would you rather sell your car to live on campus?

Why escape from there?

Lin Ziran was getting impatient. It was not good for him to stay here all the time. It would be hard to explain to his classmates when they came back. Lin Ziran pushed Ning Bai and said coldly: “If you are done, leave now.”

Ning Bai looked at the boy’s wariness and the obvious dislike on his face, and felt bitter in his heart.

Once upon a time, he liked him so much, he would always look at him expectantly, and would wait for him downstairs every day and night. At that time, he didn’t cherish him, he just thought it was a little trick of a little rogue, and he squandered his enthusiasm wantonly. And now, he finally stopped chasing him…

Ning Bai closed his eyes and said in a hoarse voice: “Okay.”

………………

Lin Ziran thought he had sent Ning Bai away, but a few days later he found out he was totally wrong!

For example, when he came out of the dormitory, he would find Ning Bai’s car parked downstairs.

When he went to bed at night, he looked down and saw that Ning Bai’s car was still down there.

Even if Ning Bai was not around to take a nap or go out for a meal, Ning Bai’s car would be back again!

Help!!!!

Although Ning Bai never showed up and didn’t bother him, he was everywhere. Lin Ziran was terrified when he thought of this. This horrible feeling of someone following him wherever he went…

By the way, why did Ning Bai do something like this?

Isn’t he very busy? When he was pursuing him before, this picky guy would often work overtime until midnight. It’s no exaggeration to say that he is very busy. Why is he following him around in school all day now?

Could it be that he really likes him? Lin Ziran shuddered.

But even if he really likes him, there is no need to go to this extent, right?

A dignified lawyer, acting like a stalker.

Have I offended you in any way?

Lin Ziran woke up from a late nap in the morning. He looked down from the balcony and saw the familiar black car again. He suddenly felt a toothache. He finally couldn’t stand it anymore! This guy is really annoying!

Lin Ziran ran downstairs and slapped the car window hard!

The car window rolled down, revealing the handsome and delicate face of the man, but compared with his usual calmness and indifference, he seemed to be a little more tired, and it seemed that he did not have a good rest during this period.

Ning Bai’s eyes were gentle and his voice was low and hoarse: “What’s the matter?”

Lin Ziran was furious. How dare you ask me what’s going on? Don’t you know what you are doing? His voice was cold and his face was unhappy: “Why are you following me? Are you sick?”

Ning Bai pursed his lips, his eyes were bitter.

He didn’t dare to tell the boy, I’m afraid you’ll do something stupid because you can’t get over it. He could hardly close his eyes these days. As soon as he closed his eyes, it was like he was back to the dark past, and this time there was a little boy with him. Every word in the boy’s diary, seemingly just a few words, outlined the boy’s hopelessness, so clearly and vividly. He worked so hard just to get his parents’ affirmation and love… But now he has lost even this last bit of hope.

Ning Bai didn’t dare to close his eyes or leave. He was afraid that if he left, he would encounter something that he would regret.

Ning Bai pursed his lips and said gently: “I didn’t follow you, I just happened to be here.”

Lin Ziran laughed angrily: “Do you think I’m a fool?”

Ning Bai lowered his eyes: “Of course not.”

Seeing the man behaving like this made Lin Ziran feel like he was punching cotton. He didn’t pester you or embarrass you. He just parked his car downstairs from your dormitory and happened to appear where you appeared. You scolded him and asked him questions, but he just pretended to be stupid and didn’t say anything.

It’s simply unbearable!

Lin Ziran kicked Ning Bai’s expensive car door fiercely and threatened fiercely: “Listen to me, you are not allowed to follow me again, understand? I don’t want to see you!”

Ning Bai’s eyes flashed with sadness, and he whispered: “You can pretend you can’t see me.”

Are you unwilling to leave?

Lin Ziran took a deep breath and raised the corner of his mouth sarcastically: “You were the one who despised me at the beginning, and now you are the one who is chasing me and refusing to leave. Did you get kicked in the head? Who are you showing this to? Let me guess, you are going to say you like me again, right?”

Ning Bai said: “No.”

Lin Ziran was stunned. Did he finally stop pretending?

Then he saw the man looking at him seriously, his amber eyes seemed to be filled with unspeakable deep pain and tenderness, and he said: “I love you.”