QT- I’m Almost Died
Chapter 213. He Jinglian, Who Has Been Completely Liberated
He Jinglian’s choice is incomprehensible to most people. In this world, too many people will stop at nothing to gain power, but few are willing to turn back when they are just one step away from the summit.
But Fan Jialuo had seen too many people and experienced too many things, so there was no surprise on his face. He simply asked seriously, “Have you thought it through?”
He Jinglian, who had only asked tentatively, suddenly brightened up, “Teacher Fan, does that mean you really have a solution?”
Fan Jialuo nodded and said, “There are two methods, sealing and stripping. Which do you choose? Sealing will store your power within your body. Perhaps one day, when you need it, you can break the seal with your powerful will and become a medium again. Stripping, on the other hand, will completely remove this power from your body. From then on, you will become an ordinary person, with absolutely no room for regret.”
He Jinglian opened her mouth, about to answer, but Fan Jialuo continued, “I hope you can think it through before answering me, don’t assume anything. You need to know that although this power is currently making you very uncomfortable and frequently putting you in danger, as long as you learn to control it, you will become very powerful.”
He paused for a moment, then explained further, “Let me put it this way, your ability is called empathy, which is a transmission and influence of emotions. Right now, you can only passively accept other people’s emotions and be influenced by them. But if you cultivate it properly and gradually become stronger, you can turn around and use your own emotions to influence others.”
What he didn’t explain was that this infection included both the transmission of emotions and the intrusion of thoughts. Once He Jinglian fully mastered this ability, she could instill her will into others, turning them into her puppets. She could control whomever she wanted with the blink of an eye or even a fleeting thought. Her talent was truly unparalleled.
However, these words are like Pandora’s box, not to be openly revealed to anyone. People always change. He Jinglian is currently very innocent and kind, but if her thinking becomes distorted as she grows up, she will become a disaster like Xiao Yanling. Even worse, if she is controlled and used by someone with ulterior motives, the harm will only be wider. She is also a ticking time bomb.
Despite these concerns, Fan Jialuo never intended to harm He Jinglian, much less arbitrarily strip her of her power. He was not a god, he could not arbitrarily control someone else’s fate. Even if He Jinglian came to him wanting to relinquish her power, he would do his best to explain the consequences to her. He was willing to place the power of choice in anyone’s hands.
He Jinglian understood his meaning and saw a bright future, but she still shook her head and said firmly, “Teacher Fan, I choose to be stripped of my ability. I want to be an ordinary person. A few days ago, we took on a job for a couple to find their daughter who had been abducted three years ago. I went to their house to do some psychic work, thinking it would be a very simple task, but I almost died.”
Recalling the scene, He Jinglian trembled involuntarily.
Ah Huo quickly hugged her and continued her story, “We never imagined that the little girl wasn’t abducted, but rather that she was kidnapped and abused to death by the neighbors, who then dragged her body back to their house and buried it in their backyard while they were out looking for their child. Every day, when that mother looked out the window and missed her daughter, her daughter was actually buried right under the window, only three meters away from her. Lianlian accidentally stepped onto this patch of ground outside the window, sensed the entire process of the little girl’s tragic death, and collapsed on the spot. Although the case was later solved, Lianlian stayed in the hospital for more than a week and is currently seeing a psychologist.”
Ah Huo’s eyes reddened as he spoke, and he said firmly, “Teacher Fan, the psychologist said that Lianlian has a tendency to suffer from depression. She is always unhappy. Although she is very powerful and can make a lot of money, I feel that happiness is what she needs most. You can leave the money-making to me. I have a good nose and I’m good at finding people. I can support her.”
Fan Jialuo raised an eyebrow and said, “You guys…..?”
He Jinglian nodded, her cheeks flushed, “We’re in love. Ah Huo said he’d send me to high school, then help me get into a good university, and after graduation, find an ordinary job and live a simple but happy life. Wennuan Jie also said that after I graduate, I can work as a liaison at her company because I’m familiar with everyone and understand their unique qualities, making communication easier. Teacher Fan, you see, even without great power, I can support myself.”
She bowed deeply, choking back tears, and said, “Teacher Fan, please help me. This strength has become a burden. I can’t move forward with it.”
Looking at the top of her dark head, Fan Jialuo reminded her again, “You must understand that once I take this power away, you will never have a chance to turn back.”
“I will never turn back.” He Jinglian raised her hand and made a vow.
Fan Jialuo gazed at her silently for a long while, then finally extended his hands and softly instructed, “Give me your hands, let my thoughts enter your mind, do not resist.”
He Jinglian quickly placed her hand in his palm, eagerly closing her eyes and opening her heart. She genuinely wanted to become an ordinary person, so Fan Jialuo’s magnetic field easily merged into her thoughts, stripping away the scattered, cold, and sharp energy particles, like shards of broken glass, from her soul.
This process was extremely painful because those energy bodies were originally a part of He Jinglian, and taking them away was equivalent to cutting off a piece of her flesh. But she persevered without uttering a sound, this excruciating pain was nothing to her, who had teetered on the brink of life and death several times.
Time ticked by, and as Ah Huo paced anxiously in circles, Fan Jialuo finally announced in a low voice, “It’s done.”
He Jinglian eagerly opened her eyes, groping her body up and down. Realizing how foolish she was, she hurriedly reached for Ah Huo’s hands, but could no longer feel that passionate and sincere emotion. He was clearly standing right in front of her, yet he had become a completely closed-off individual. She couldn’t see into his heart, and so a piece of her own heart felt empty.
Noticing his girlfriend’s hesitation, Ah Huo quickly hugged her, patted her back vigorously, and his eyes were filled with her image.
Looking into his eyes, full of concern and love, He Jinglian quickly cheered up again. Just a moment ago, she truly felt the psychological gap between going from a medium to an ordinary person. However, just when her mind was about to lose its balance, Ah Huo was like a soft cushion, helping her land smoothly from the heights and ultimately gain peace.
“Thank you, Teacher Fan.” She bowed deeply, but her heart was still pounding with anxiety.
“You can’t back out now,” Fan Jialuo reminded her again.
“I understand. Teacher Fan, I want to go out and experience it.” He Jinglian pointed to the gate of the residential area.
“Go.” Fan Jialuo raised his chin, and the two young people held hands and ran towards the outside world.
“Where are we going?” Ah Huo pulled out his car keys and shook them.
With one hand on her hip and the other pointing to the main road ahead, He Jinglian declared aggressively, “I’m going into the sea of people!” She had never even dared to think of such a thing before, let alone say it aloud. The moment she stepped into a teeming crowd, every person who brushed past her transformed into a vast vat of emotion, unguarding pouring out upon her a chaotic deluge of feelings——joy, sorrow, anger, exhaustion, fear, anxiety, hatred, and revulsion…..
Admittedly, people like Dr. Song, who harbor such deep-seated thoughts, are extremely rare and hard to find in a crowd. But even very ordinary emotions, such as numbness or indifference, can cause great psychological harm to He Jinglian if they accumulate layer upon layer.
No matter how heavy the sorrow one person can bear, it is only for that person. But He Jinglian, standing in the center of the crowd, has to bear the sorrow of the whole world. What kind of weight is that? It is a colossal thing that can crush any person in an instant.
To prevent such a psychological breakdown, He Jinglian always lived in seclusion and isolated herself. The grandest event she participated in was 《The World of Extraordinary People》, and the people she met most often were the program’s staff. Even with such great power, she had never truly seen the world.
As the car drove along, she kept looking out the window, dreaming about the future, “I want to go to Disneyland.”
Ah Huo immediately nodded, “Okay, I’ll take you there tomorrow.”
“I also want to stroll around the food street, the one recommended in 《Tasty Life》. There are so many people and so much delicious food. I can eat my way from one end of the street to the other.”
Ah Huo unconditionally agreed, “After we go to Disneyland, we’ll go to the food street.”
“I also want to go shopping in a mall, the kind where you take the elevator up floor by floor, where there are lots of shops all together, so I can browse them all to my heart’s content.”
Ah Huo slammed his fist on the steering wheel, “Buy, buy, buy!”
He Jinglian became more and more excited as she spoke, “I also want to go swimming at the beach, go to comic conventions, travel, and see the whole world.”
Ah Huo tossed his phone to her, “Immediately ask Wennuan Jie for leave, and tell her that we’re not going to work tomorrow and are going on a trip.”
He Jinglian asked incredulously, “Really?”
“Of course it’s true, I will grant all your wishes.”
He Jinglian’s excitement suddenly subsided, and she said timidly, “Let’s wait until we get into the city before asking for leave. What if…” She didn’t finish her sentence, but Ah Huo understood her concerns. She was afraid that everything she was experiencing now was just a beautiful dream, and when she woke up, she would still be the He Jinglian who could only live in the shadows, instead of the happy ordinary person she was now who could experience all her desires.
“We’ll be in the city soon. I’ll take you shopping first.” Ah Huo held her hand, his tone very confident.
He Jinglian’s anxious heart gradually calmed down. She looked out the window and stopped saying a word. She was afraid that the more she spoke, the crueler reality would become. From childhood to adulthood, the most profound lesson she had learned was, don’t have expectations, because they will only bring deeper despair.
Ah Huo quickly drove the car into the parking lot of the busiest commercial center, patted the steering wheel and said, “Okay, let’s get out.” He unbuckled his seatbelt and then went to unbuckle He Jinglian’s.
“Wait!” He Jinglian gripped the strap tightly, taking deep breaths, “Let me prepare myself. Where are your knee pads? I saw them in your car last time, get them out for me now.”
“Why do you need knee pads?” Ah Huo asked, puzzled.
“I’m afraid I’ll faint. I feel especially uncomfortable when there are many people around.” He Jinglian pressed herself tightly against the back of the chair, wishing she could become one with the leather. Her past terrifying experiences had instilled in her a natural fear of crowds.
“Stop dawdling, get out!” Ah Huo unbuckled her seatbelt, went around to the other end, dragged her out of the passenger seat, and pushed her into the crowd. She spun around and accidentally bumped into someone. The person glared at her and muttered, “Are you blind?” Several young people walked past her, assuming she had been bullied by her boyfriend, and their eyes showed sympathy.
People constantly brushed past her, some without glancing at her, others giving her a fleeting glance, coming and going silently. Their hearts were like castles, tightly shut, not allowing anyone to peek inside.
He Jinglian stood on the bustling street, yet it felt as if she were standing on a desolate mountain, surrounded by utter silence. She was stunned, staring incredulously at the hurried passersby, tears welling up in her eyes without her noticing.
When Ah Huo saw her crying, he rushed to her side and asked anxiously, “What’s wrong? Are you feeling unwell?”
“No.” He Jinglian gripped his hand tightly, choking back tears, “I can’t sense anything anymore. They…” She said, pointing to the bustling crowd, tears streaming down her face, “Their hearts are closed to me. They’ve become like closed castles, refusing my entry, but I feel so safe. These castles stand around me, protecting me, making me feel so safe. I’m so moved. I like this silence, I like this isolation, I like it so much…”
He Jinglian cried with emotion. No one could understand her feelings at that moment. Other people are hell, and she, who could see into the hearts of others, had always lived in hell. But now, that gate to hell had suddenly closed on her, banishing her forever.
What is it like to return from hell to the free world? He Jinglian couldn’t say a word. She cried and squatted on the ground, curling up like a child and hugging her head. Ah Huo patted her back helplessly, silently enduring the scornful looks from passersby.
An older woman couldn’t stand it anymore and stepped forward to ask, “Young lady, what’s wrong? Did your boyfriend bully you?” As she spoke, she glared at Ah Huo.
He Jinglian quickly raised her head, revealing a face with a bright smile, but also covered in tears and snot. “Thank you, Ayi, I’m fine, I’m just so happy! If I didn’t squat down, I’m afraid I would have jumped up into the sky!” She wiped away her tears haphazardly with her sleeve, then spread her arms and rushed into the crowd, jumping and laughing, as happy as a monkey.
The older woman was embarrassed, but Ah Huo bowed to her, thanked her sincerely, and then skipped after her. The two ran hand in hand down the street, their pure joy infecting many people and bringing smiles to their faces.
Ah Huo kept his promise, taking He Jinglian to the mall and food street, and then asked Song Wennuan for a week’s leave to take He Jinglian to Disneyland or somewhere even further away. As they were happily walking home, Mother He called, saying that Father He was seriously ill and wanted to see his daughter one last time.
“Shall we go?” Ah Huo asked, somewhat reluctantly.
“Go ahead, there has to be a resolution.” Having lost her powerful psychic abilities, He Jinglian has become even braver. She can no longer sense anyone’s feelings, so she doesn’t need to worry about anyone’s feelings.
The two quickly arrived at the hospital and found Father He lying on the bed groaning in a ward. He glanced at his daughter listlessly without saying a word. Mother He immediately came forward and scolded, “Why did you take so long to come? I sent you a text message at noon, didn’t you see it? Your ba has been asking for you all day, you heartless thing.”
Mother He was adept at exaggerating her emotions, amplifying a small amount of disappointment and heartache to tenfold, thereby shaking her daughter’s resolve. Of course, this disappointment and heartache were also 100% genuine, anyone who suddenly loses a cash cow would feel a knife cutting into their heart.
But He Jinglian felt no emotion at the moment, so she remained indifferent. She looked at her mother coldly, as if she hadn’t heard what she said.
In the past, whenever she touched her mother’s heart and sensed her sadness or disappointment, she would try her best to fulfill her wishes and make her happy. It wasn’t out of filial piety or understanding, but because only when her mother was happy could she find a little peace.
As Mother He gradually came to understand the nature of her daughter’s abilities, she surprisingly learned to control her daughter with her emotions without any formal instruction. If her daughter was obedient enough, she would give her some love in return, if her daughter was rebellious, she would use disappointment, anger, and heartache to beat her down, making her suffer greatly.
Once she sensed that her daughter was considering leaving home, she would deliberately sleep with her for several nights, venting all sorts of negative emotions on her throughout the night, preventing her from getting a moment’s sleep. This method was less about educating a child and more about training a dog.
Gradually, she became a master of emotional control, and slowly shed her role as a mother, transforming into a jailer. If she told her daughter to go east, her daughter would never dare to go west. But now, this method seems to be failing. She desperately amplifies her sadness and grief, but her daughter remains unmoved. Has her heart truly hardened so much?
Yes, He Jinglian’s heart had long been hardened to the bone by repeated exploitation and hurt. She glanced at her father’s medical record and found that he only had a common cold. A look of understanding flashed across her eyes, “Ma, ba, I’ve lost my psychic abilities. I’m just an ordinary person now.” She said calmly.
“What did you say?” Mother He was stunned.
The dying Father He was startled and sat up abruptly.
He Jinglian walked around the ward and found that the old lady in the next bed had liver cancer and had come to the hospital for treatment because she couldn’t bear the pain. She held the old lady’s withered hand and said, word by word, “You see, I can’t feel anything now.” As she spoke, the old lady kept groaning and was already delirious from the pain.
Normally, He Jinglian would collapse if she even touched this kind of person, but today she sat there perfectly fine, looking very calm.
Mother He couldn’t believe it and rushed to the old lady’s bedside to check her medical record.
The old lady’s son walked in at the right moment, thinking they were concerned about his mother. He quickly thanked them and then sighed as he explained, “She has late-stage liver cancer and only has a few months left. Even administering Demerol at home couldn’t relieve her pain anymore, so we had no choice but to bring her to the hospital. The pain management ward is already full, there are no beds available. The doctors have asked us to wait here for a couple of days. She is in such excruciating pain that she can’t help but cry out, if we end up disturbing any of you, I’d like to apologize in advance.”
Mother He had no choice but to exchange a few pleasantries with the man. He Jinglian gently released the old lady’s hand, silently prayed for her, and then left the ward without a sound. She hadn’t gone far when Mother He and Father He chased after her, repeatedly demanding, “You’ve really become a normal person? Why is this happening? You’re lying to us, aren’t you?”
“Why would I lie to you? I’ve already resigned from the company.” He Jinglian pulled up her chat history with Song Wennuan and showed it to them. In the chat, she clearly wrote that she had lost her ability to perform her current job and wanted to leave. Song Wennuan persuaded her a few times before she agreed and told her to go and complete the formalities the next day.
Mother He gripped her daughter’s hand tightly, reading the conversation several times before gazing deeply into her daughter’s calm, expressionless eyes. She finally realized the news was likely true. After all, her daughter had grown up under her control, she knew better than anyone whether her daughter was lying. Besides, who would willingly give up a job with a million yuan annual salary?
Seeing that her mother’s face was turning pale, He Jinglian finally asked the question that had been on her mind for a long time, “Ma, I’m just an ordinary person now. I dropped out of high school, I have no diploma, no skills, and I can’t earn money. Will there be any food left for me in this family?”
Mother He didn’t speak, but subconsciously let go of hand that she was tightly gripping.
He Jinglian had already anticipated this outcome. She gave a bitter smile and strode away. She had no more attachment to this family.
Mother He then realized what was happening and chased after her, calling out, “Where are you going? I didn’t realize it until just now. I didn’t mean to look down on you. Come back with me. How could there be no food for you at home?”
“Yes, I can still go out and work to earn some hard-earned money to support this family. After all, even a small amount is still money. But Ma, don’t forget, I’m eighteen years old now, an adult. You have no right to restrict my freedom. I can go wherever I want, it’s none of your business. Once you lose your ability to work, I will send you three hundred yuan every month, and that’s all. If you think it’s too little, you can sue me in court. I just turned eighteen and don’t have a job, the judge probably won’t even award you three hundred yuan.” He Jinglian waved her hand without turning her head.
Hearing her cold words and realizing she was completely out of control and couldn’t be squeezed any further, Mother He gave up trying to pursue the matter. Father He came running over, panting, and asked repeatedly, “Is she really incapable? Has she really become an ordinary person?”
“I called her to the hospital this time to put more psychological pressure on her, but she didn’t seem to feel any pain at all. Did you see that? She walked very fast, completely oblivious to the suffering of the patients around her. What she said must be true.” Mother He’s face was ashen.
Father He trembled with fear and cried out helplessly, “How are we going to pay for our son’s tuition next semester? He’s spent all our savings abroad, we’re broke!”
“You’re asking me? Who should I ask?” Mother He cried anxiously, opening her mobile banking app and checking her account balance over and over again, only to find everything suddenly gone blank. Without her daughter, the three of them were even struggling to put food on the table.
After crying for a while, Mother he shrieked, “Why aren’t you packing your things and going home? You’ve come to the hospital for a little cold, are you just throwing money away? It costs several hundred yuan a day, can you afford that? If you were capable of earning money, would I need to rely on my daughter? You good-for-nothing!”
“How dare you insult me? How much money have you actually made in your life? Hey, do you think our son might also have psychic abilities? Maybe we should find some time to have him try it out?”
“Don’t even think about ruining my son’s future! He’s studying abroad!”
Mother He rushed over and started fighting with Father He, attracting onlookers to stop and watch.
At the same time, Fan Jialuo called Dr. Song to his bedroom, had him sit on the edge of the bathtub, held his hands in his palms, and said softly, “Dr. Song, I would like to give you a gift.”
“What gift?” Song Rui looked at him expectantly.
“A complete world.” Fan Jialuo smiled serenely.
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